Denial

Hey

So I'm here, ready to talk about something new despite my fatigue. Insomnia is a curse, but when you're constantly sneezing on top...... Do the math. So, I'll just talk about something else that intrigues and bothers me: Denial.

I view it in two ways:
1. Lying to others
2. Lying to yourself

Most people I know, deny allegations to save face. Nobody wants to look bad or stupid,  especially in the public view. This is perfectly understandable, but isn't right. Usually, denying something or even someone comes with a heavy price. One will have to shift blame to another person for the issue and make that person a scapegoat. I've seen people discard their most loyal friends in such a situation. If you aren't trustworthy, you will end up alone and no man is an island. We all need help and support from people we can trust.

However, it is the second kind that baffles me to no end. Self-denial is a very pitiful thing, as that person is probably sick and doesn't know it. Such people usually believe they are smarter than everyone else, therefore, they can do anything and get away with it. They have high opinions about themselves and refuse to hear anything otherwise. They create public images, as part of their obsessive need to control everyone and everything every time. I think that's borderline psychotic.

If you know you are two different personalities in public and private, you might like to see a psychiatrist about a possible case of Multiple Personality Disorder lol. Isn't it taxing to keep up such appearances? Mehn if people already have an impression of you, just deal with it; it doesn't matter. First impressions are almost usually wrong. They aren't even worth the fuss; If they were worth it, they would want to get to know you for you. You can even use such impressions to your advantage, I mean, at least you're being talked about, ergo, you're relevant. Remember Oscar Wilde: "The only thing worse than being talked about is NOT being talked about". Suck it up; other people are hustling for attention, whether it's fame or infamy. You know yourself, don't let anybody else determine who you are.


That's some food for thought. Till next time.....